Believe

i am still scared

afraid of falling

wasting my time

self medicating

i've mastered feeling nothing

run away so i can hide

the truth is

i'm not so good at showing how i feel

or keeping my mouth shut when there's something to conceal

or knowing how to love

 if love is not in my memories

then how can i rise about all my insecurities

everything changes if i could just turn back the years.

if you could learn to forgive me

then maybe i could learn how to feel

i need to fill the void inside

looking with tired eyes

twisting

turning

crashing

burning

faceless

faking

pushing

taking

all this to just break me down

you don't know me and i don't care

i'm waiting for you to disappear

or are you my cross to bear

in a shell

waiting for someone to rescue me

no disappointment when no one comes

the falling is easy

getting back up is the problem

tired of this dysfunctional routine

believe there is a way out and solve the problem

believe

and solve the problem